Talk about forever..

Wow, so much has changed since I last wrote in here I really feel as though it is a whole new me. To start off I am, unfortuantely wayyyy past the hazy summer days I adore so much. School is actually over one-half over. You could say that a lot has changed. I mean, remember that guy I was talking about, my "other half" haha as if. We broke up in November (no bad blood we just grew apart). Now he is happily dating my bestest friend and they seem happier than ever. I mean I am so glad that they got together. Also, I quit swimming. I find it quite comical that in one of my old posts it talks about, "I don't know if I will be able to give this up" but let me just say it has been quite simple. I miss my girlfriends, sure but I never really felt connected with the rest of the team. I never really cared to do better and eveyone else was so dead-set on doing their best. I found my true love-debating. I actually quit swimming so I could debate and believe me that desicion has changed my life, who I am today. I mean it has opened me to critical thinking, researching, nation-wide traveling and sooo much more. It really has been the best desicion I ever made. I am in Public Forum and for all you non-debaters, don't worry a few months ago I didn't know what that meant either, my catagory is all about current controverisal topics. It is a two-person debate which means I have a partner and our rounds are usually around 45 minutes. I spend approximately 10 hours a week at practice and then several more on my own every night. Not to mention that my whole Saturday, EVERY weekend is taken up by a tournament one place or another. But, ehh it's my passion. Also, I met a very important Persaon wayy back in August. On the first few days I talked to him for the first time. We instantly clicked, I had never felt such a strong bond with someone after just meeting them. Needless to say we became best friends, he was always there due to the 4 classes we shared and the fact that he was also on the debate team. As dumb as it sounds our close friendship led to something more. Realizing my feelings for him led to my boyfriend and I's aforementioned break-up in November. We tried dating, me and my best friend. Unfortuantely he made some bad desicions and we broke up. We didn't talk for over two months and it was so painful. Every single day I would miss him and most nights ended in me in tears. I finally knew what it was like to really miss my other half. Thankfully in the middle of January we started talking again, but we had a few blowouts. At this point the feelings are back for the both of us. Yet, my parents won't let us get back together so we are in this odd friendship but we both want more. Everyday I feel like I am falling for him more and more again. It is scary but it's worth the risk of getting hurt, he makes me happy. Wow, yeah a lot has happened. I mean I could go into MUCH more detail about my life but at the moment that's all you need to know. Haha, mysterious right? ;) Well I'm gonna go make my bed. Love you all, thanks for reading my rants. Hehehehe I crack myself up :D