Talk about forever..

Wow, so much has changed since I last wrote in here I really feel as though it is a whole new me. To start off I am, unfortuantely wayyyy past the hazy summer days I adore so much. School is actually over one-half over. You could say that a lot has changed. I mean, remember that guy I was talking about, my "other half" haha as if. We broke up in November (no bad blood we just grew apart). Now he is happily dating my bestest friend and they seem happier than ever. I mean I am so glad that they got together. Also, I quit swimming. I find it quite comical that in one of my old posts it talks about, "I don't know if I will be able to give this up" but let me just say it has been quite simple. I miss my girlfriends, sure but I never really felt connected with the rest of the team. I never really cared to do better and eveyone else was so dead-set on doing their best. I found my true love-debating. I actually quit swimming so I could debate and believe me that desicion has changed my life, who I am today. I mean it has opened me to critical thinking, researching, nation-wide traveling and sooo much more. It really has been the best desicion I ever made. I am in Public Forum and for all you non-debaters, don't worry a few months ago I didn't know what that meant either, my catagory is all about current controverisal topics. It is a two-person debate which means I have a partner and our rounds are usually around 45 minutes. I spend approximately 10 hours a week at practice and then several more on my own every night. Not to mention that my whole Saturday, EVERY weekend is taken up by a tournament one place or another. But, ehh it's my passion. Also, I met a very important Persaon wayy back in August. On the first few days I talked to him for the first time. We instantly clicked, I had never felt such a strong bond with someone after just meeting them. Needless to say we became best friends, he was always there due to the 4 classes we shared and the fact that he was also on the debate team. As dumb as it sounds our close friendship led to something more. Realizing my feelings for him led to my boyfriend and I's aforementioned break-up in November. We tried dating, me and my best friend. Unfortuantely he made some bad desicions and we broke up. We didn't talk for over two months and it was so painful. Every single day I would miss him and most nights ended in me in tears. I finally knew what it was like to really miss my other half. Thankfully in the middle of January we started talking again, but we had a few blowouts. At this point the feelings are back for the both of us. Yet, my parents won't let us get back together so we are in this odd friendship but we both want more. Everyday I feel like I am falling for him more and more again. It is scary but it's worth the risk of getting hurt, he makes me happy. Wow, yeah a lot has happened. I mean I could go into MUCH more detail about my life but at the moment that's all you need to know. Haha, mysterious right? ;) Well I'm gonna go make my bed. Love you all, thanks for reading my rants. Hehehehe I crack myself up :D

Blind by Ke$ha

Read these lyrics:

I think you got the best of me
You're sleepin' with the enemy
You left me all alone, alone, alone, alone
The beat drop
I'm so low
My heart stops
I already know
You left me all alone, alone, alone, alone

I'm sick and tired of the mess you made me
Never gonna catch me cry
Oh whoa whoa
You must be blind if you can't see
You'll miss me till the day you die
Oh whoa whoa
Without me, you're nothing
Oh whoa whoa
You must be blind if you can't see
You'll miss me till the day you die
Oh whoa whoa

I've let go, finally over you
This drama that you put me through
I'm better all alone, alone, alone, alone
The beat drops, you're so low
It's last call and it's gotten old
Now look who's all alone, alone, alone, alone

I'm sick and tired of the mess you made me
Never gonna catch me cry
Oh whoa whoa
You must be blind if you can't see
You'll miss me till the day you die
Oh whoa whoa
Without me, you're nothing
Oh whoa whoa
You must be blind if you can't see
You'll miss me till the day you die
Oh whoa whoa

I trusted you
You were the first
Then you lied and it get's worse
You broke me down
Now just look around
Who's all alone?
Who's all alone now?

I'm sick and tired of the mess you made me
Never gonna catch me cry
Oh whoa whoa
You must be blind if you can't see
You'll miss me till the day you die
Oh whoa whoa
Without me, you're nothing
Oh whoa whoa
You must be blind if you can't see
You'll miss me till the day you die

~

To listen go to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w-jeRIUrcII&feature=related

This song just powers me up....yes to the guy who tore my heart apart...I am OVER you. Good luck with missing me.

CRAZY rides

Now, now, now, I do not mean roller-coasters.....that is a whole different story to tell ( a GOOD one though ). I meant bike riding. Now one may think this girl is a wack-job to think a simple ride on your BIKE is crazy.....to those brilliant minds yes, yes I am crazy and sometimes even a wack-job. If you have a problem with that GET OFF MY BLOG! Well to those who minded their manners and politely read on congratulations you get to hear my story. Now in your minds please clear them ( an easy task for most people :P ) and imagine this: A twelve mile ride that begins at seven in the morning, getting eaten alive by mosquitos and sitting on a bike seat for four hours ( lord knows those are not comfy like a couch ). Let's just say I straight up collapsed when I was done. Tomorrow is my last day of summer gym sooo excited, we are going bowling....yay for gutter balls! :P In gym my team and I have lost every badminton game we played, I don't mind because I love the game anyway. Right at the moment I am sitting in my room listening to Ke$ha, man I freaking am in LOVE with her music. Alllllll I listen to....well other things but at the moment she is my obsession. Texting is soo fun. I am kinda addicted. It is only bad when you are talking to too many people at once. Which I pretty much always am. Oh well I love my friends. :D I am soooooo excited for Sunday my boyfriend comes home from camp!!! :D Okay guys this is like amazing AMAZING news okay imagine me....goody two shoes, girl next door....next week at this time I will on a cruise ship on the way outta the country!!!!! ME!!! AWH! :D Nine days of nooo stress and nooo swimming. HEAVEN! The meet last night was unbelievably amazing. I really don't know if I will be able to give it up. I just love it sooo much. Found out one of my good okay not good GREAT guy friends likes me like a LOT. I mean in the back of my head I always kinda knew but the conformation startled me. I mean am I that amazing. ;) HAHA just kidding. Well I am gonna gooo. I will write ya'll later cause I know you guys can't live without my amazing blog. ( HAHA doubt anyone even reads this ). And remember those mosquitoes I was talking about they itch SO BAD!!!!!!!!!

My CRAZY day

Today was sort of crazy. I mean this morning of course I had to get up at 6 for gym, it was sooooo cold in my room I just wanted to stay under my covers. I got to gym then onto swimming. I am thankful for my truly amazing friends. Together we survive the coaches and their INSANE sets. Can you say TIRING??? It was not so bad though but the four sets of hundred butterfly I had to do was kinda terrible. :( I also fell off the swimming block and hit my head HARD on the wall. Gym was kinda tiring but badmittion was fun...I am not good at it like at ALL but I really do love it :) After gym I got a well needed shower and did my hair....it looked good afterward if I do say so myself. Then an orthodontist appointment-GOOD NEWS!!!! I got told I only have to wear my retainers at night so PRETTY teeth during the day!!! :D AND now I can chew sugar gum!!!!!! ( I haven't chewed non-sugarfree gum in.....YEARS. ) It feels weird to not my retainers on constantly but oh well my teeth look nice. I am so excited for Sunday!!!!!!!!!!!! Not only is it Father's Day but my boyfriend comes home from boy scout camp. Without him.....half of me is gone. :( SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO looking forward to my cruise. Right now chilling in my room and listening to Ke$ha. LOVE her music. Wellllllllllll I am gonna goooooo. Talk to y'all later. Have a wonderfullllll day. :D